so, yeah. I haven't really done much work lately on the couple of projects at the forefront, and I haven't been doing as many sketches as I'd like. So likewise, there hasn't been much new here. It's mostly been worries about money. I'm looking for a second job, and I finally have a promising lead -- an interview on Thursday -- but I've been too stressed about money to really be able to concentrate on anything.
And on top of that, they're raising my rent. By quite a bit, so it looks like in a month I'll be moving. Sticking around in the area; if I get this job I'll definitely stay in Redmond. Otherwise? Well, I'm screwed if I don't, but it's cheaper in the surrounding area, like Kirland, or Seattle.
I should be getting ready for my flight... I need to finish packing clothes, figure out what I'm bringing with me other than clothes, make sure everything's in order... Finish the painting I'm working on. If I have time (after I'm finished wasting time typing this) later, I should scan the last couple sketches I did. I'm not gonna bother putting them all up, but some of them are worth showing. I'll probably leave that for tomorrow or so, however. Scanning them needs to be done today, so that I can leave that sketchbook here, and just bring my new one.
I've been miserable as hell the past couple days, and not sleeping well. I'm looking forward to seeing my family & friends; giving myself a chance to distance myself from what's bothering me & what I can't change. Enough god damned moping, already; I need to get away from things, distract myself, hopefully get some work done, renew my spirits... All I can hope that things will change on their own.
What I really need to do is throw myself back into my work. I'l hoping that once I've digested all this crap, it'll be easier to do that. Several projects on the burners that are screaming out to be finished... and I'm too busy w/stupid stuff to give them the attention I want to devote to them.
Like collaboration. I'm actually trying to give that a shot, but I need to hammer out the foundation & clarify for myself what exactly I want, so I can clearly communicate to my collaborators what I want from them. I'm pretty close to being able to do that, and that's probably what I'm going to focus on while I'm visiting my family.
I'm sick of being stupid.
I feel I should be doing more with my time. Still stuck in a rut. Don't know what else there is, really. A month has passed & I don't know what I have to show for that time. Except a constant yearning that I can't do anything about.
Playing around w/MySQL. Changed the pw. Broke bBlog and didn't realize it. Back now. Playing lots of Fable. Also found this great game - ←Uplink. Lots of fun. Very different, too. Supposedly there's a couple other games out there along the same lines. Gonna look into those. (I seem to remember a BBS game called Nethack. Not your regular nethack, but a "hacking" game.)